Ulcerative Colitis Is Not What You Think It Is
After nearly dying twice, plant medicine revealed the single entity behind all chronic digestive disease—IBS, UC, Crohn's, gastritis, colon cancer—and why we spiritually agreed to it
I'm two or three years old. It's night. Yellow kitchen light. My father is punching my screaming mother in the face, in the body. She's trying to protect herself. My sister and I are crying. I remember the words that came out of me: "Apu! Nem!"—Hungarian for "Daddy! No!"
But what I remember most is the feeling in my gut. Utterly gut-wrenchingly vulnerable. Scared of dying. Terror that consumed me on the spot.
That feeling became my normal.
That feeling is what the chronic condition I am dealing with feels like inside me—the exact replica. It's latent now, subliminal but steady and all-present. When I'm flaring, it's a chronic warzone in my nervous system where I expect bombs to explode any second, and they do.
Around four decades later, in 2015, that feeling finally had a name: ulcerative colitis. But the name was wrong. The diagnosis was incomplete. And what I learned through plant medicine and during the first five years when I nearly died twice, would challenge everything Western medicine claims to know about digestive disease.
The Five-Year Descent
When my GI gave me the diagnosis, he seemed optimistic, almost cheerful—as if we were dealing with a severe flu. I left believing this was fixable through natural means. After all, I'd spent my life learning to be self-sufficient, to earn my worth through effort, sacrifice and achievement. Of course, I could heal myself.
I tried everything:
Chinese herbal medicine (which accelerated the progression and brought me to 24 bloody bowel movements per day)
Jini Patel Thompson's "Listen To Your Gut" protocols (which cost me thousands and left me shitting jello)
Countless supplements, dietary protocols, energy healers, therapists
Pride, stubbornness, and the delusion that I was on a hero's journey
Through this chain of failed approaches and continuous research and study of the matter, I understood three things:
A. The food you're eating is not the culprit. It's the illness that prevents your body from absorbing food.
B. Changing your diet may help with managing symptoms if it's done in conjunction with Western medicine, but it doesn't change the source of the illness.
C. Chronic patterns of stress are likely to manifest as chronic conditions. This means that when we unconsciously recreate inherited and/or acquired stress patterns, our bodies reflect this by attracting chronic illness (1)
After five years—bleeding almost daily, anemic, exhausted, defeated—I came back to my GI. Only then did he tell me point-blank: "This is a serious illness that can kill you."
That was the wake-up call. My delusional hero period ended. The illness had almost succeeded in killing me. Western medicine saved my colon in the hospital.
And I learned something crucial: Western medicine is akin to a miracle. It doesn't heal the condition, but it allows me to live an almost normal life. It manages symptoms. It keeps me alive. And, like everything, it is an aspect of divine light in manifestation, available as needed.
But it currently doesn't address what's actually happening.
What Plant Medicine Revealed
By 2015, I had already been growing and spiritually apprenticing with Salvia Divinorum for fifteen years and had attended Ayahuasca ceremonies since 2012/2013.
In the middle of that five-year descent—still bleeding, still desperate—my healthy intuition (the part that never gives up on me and has led me to Salvia and Ayahuasca as if to prepare me for what's to come) led me to train in remote energy reading for two years. It opened new mental, emotional, energetic, and spiritual possibilities.
The plant medicine work heightened my ability to feel and be present with out-of-the-ordinary layers of reality.
Through that enhanced perception, I saw what Western medicine cannot see.
What we call IBS, gastritis, ulcerative colitis, Crohn's disease, and colon cancer are not separate conditions. They are expressions—different stages and intensities—of a single entity interacting with human energy fields, and more importantly, they interact with the global body of humanity as a whole.
Western medicine has fragmented one phenomenon into multiple diagnoses. It's like encountering elephants raiding fermented alcohol in a village and calling it "crop damage syndrome" in one field, "fence destruction disorder" in another, and "storage disruption disease" in a third—never recognizing it's the same elephants with the same behavior pattern.
Through guidance from the I-Ching, I was given a name for this entity:
Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang.
This name—or whatever name resonates for you—encompasses all expressions of digestive illness profiles, superseding Western and Eastern medical paradigms of separation.
Understanding the Entity
Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang is not "against us." It's neutral. We are food to it—like grass to a grazing herbivore or like carrots are to us. It feeds on the global body of humanity and its billions of human energy fields, where the body is the densest, most dramatic expression of that feeding.
Just like our insensitivity to a carrot's perceptions of being devoured by us, it is impervious to the suffering it creates in the energy fields it manages to graze on. The possibility of it perceiving our pain is not an option available to it. Nor does a lion have it towards the zebra it catches.
We use our eyes and hands, combined with our intention, to get a hold of a carrot and eat it. Similarly, it uses two primary markers to identify its feeding sources (that's us):
Chronic fear and chronic lack.
These markers act like magnets, immediately attracting Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang to bodies that exude them. Most human energy fields are not susceptible—they (still) have stronger membranes. But countless others of us are supersensitive to fear and lack, and our sensitive energy fields have weaker boundaries than the majority of humanity.
How do we become susceptible to an entity like Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang?
In fact, as creations of the divine itself, we all start with extraordinarily powerful energy fields. Energetically speaking, we're tough cookies. But our strong membranes get worn down by the constant onslaught of chronic fear and chronic lack. And, no, this is not a poor man's condition. It makes no exceptions—all are affected, the materially rich and the poor and everyone in between.
Think about what we actually mean when we say we're "stressed" or "chronically stressed." What we're really saying is: we are afraid. We live in chronic fear.
Lack isn't necessarily material lack, though it often expresses that way. It's the internalized belief that we are not enough, that there isn't enough, that we must fight and sacrifice to earn our right to exist. This is the conditioning I absorbed—beaten into me, shamed into me, terrorized into me as a child. That became my "normal."
And it wore down my energetic membrane until I became available as food.
The inflammation we experience is not a self-destruct phenomenon. It's an alert system. The body is indicating where the entry point of this entity is into the human energy system. The inflammation shows us where to direct our attention spiritually.
Western medicine's approach—medications like Stelara that close up inflammatory receptors—is like putting bitter-tasting dust on grass to make it unpalatable to cows. The cows eat less or, temporarily, move on to another patch. But they're still there, still grazing, still waiting.
My medicine temporarily makes me symptom-free or in remission. But I'm not healed. The entity is not gone. It's waiting for the next point of entry—when the medication wears off, when my body gets weaker, when I lose alertness in stressful situations, when I indulge and don't live an impeccable life.
Then it swoops in, takes another bite, retreats when medications make me taste bad again.
This entity has time. It's not bound to the construct of time we humans use for daily function. It waits outside of time, neutrally observing the "pasture of human energy bubbles" to see where the next entry point appears.
Why Me? Why Us?
Here's the part that most healing approaches ignore:
Spiritually, we agreed to this.
Those of us susceptible to Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang are here—in agreement with this entity—to be woken up. To see the power of our spirit. To recognize our inheritance as reality makers. To sense beyond our five senses the presence of multilayered aspects of existence that the rational mind cannot grasp.
This entity's presence forces those of us ready for it to awaken.
Yes, mind-body approaches help—they're better than nothing. But they don't address the real reason for the presence of this entity in us. They treat it mechanically: inputs versus outputs, without transformation.
I followed Jini Patel's protocols for more than two years. My ulcerative colitis kept spreading, eventually taking over my entire large intestine.
She never mentioned in her materials a known medical fact: the condition called ulcerative colitis expresses in a scalloping way. When it's down you think you're getting better, when it's upwards you realize that whatever you were doing wasn't working or is not working anymore somehow. When following her protocols I often celebrated the progress just to be dismayed by the "mysterious" regressions that necessarily followed.
Her approach contributed to my blindness to what I actually needed: to wake up and see the power of this spirit/entity entering human bodies, and the need for qualified medical help.
It almost killed me. Luckily, Western medicine saved me and my gut in the hospital.
The Body Prayers: A New Technology
Some time after my energy work training, in that raw desperate state—still far from medical stability—I asked my body what it needed to heal.
I saw light. I followed it with movement. Something entirely unexpected emerged.
Through channeling sessions, structures of light revealed themselves in my visionary third-eye view. I followed them by moving my body and narrating what I was seeing and doing. After each session, I reconstructed what happened—revealing movement sequences with accompanying words and visual light structures that I could remember and practice through the bodily movement.
I call these Body Prayers.
I've channeled and recorded approximately 180-200 of them now—each one a response to a specific question. Many questions aim at finding answers to the mystery of spiritual ascension, awakening the dreaming body, and, of course, many questions about healing, like: "How do I release my habitual habit to know myself as guided by Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang?" The questions about healing emerge from observing the patterns this entity creates in my life—the urge for deep answers and true freedom that comes through suffering rather than love.
Let me be clear about what Body Prayers are and aren't:
They will very likely not heal your symptoms. For that, you need Western medicine. But they will build your resilience, your endurance, and your trust in your higher self and in the design of the universe.
They teach your body—through slow daily layering—to know peace on a cellular level.
That is new. That is not something you need to conjure up, not something you need to effort yourself into.
This builds up if you show up to the practice. If you show up to the appointment with your body every day until it starts to believe you when you say you want to heal.
It is a new way for your body.
Think of it this way: We have spent decades training ourselves in self-hatred, self-deprecation, self-diminishment, hatred of others or in creating incredibly stressful high-stakes, high-performance situations just to prove we deserve to be alive. No matter which pattern, it is always one of self-sacrifice.
For what?
To show mommy or daddy that we deserve their love? Still? After decades?
Even after they might have passed on?
Body Prayers counteract this. They deposit high-vibrational light instead of darkness into our being. They teach us to respect and love ourselves in ways our conditioning never allowed.
Here's what I observed:
When Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang is active (during flares), I feel a strong urge to find deep answers and true freedom. Its presence has a guiding effect—but it's guidance through suffering and pain.
The miracle of healing would be happening when my spiritual growth stems from alignment with love and gratitude, not from alignment with fear and lack.
The Body Prayers work toward that shift. They slowly build peace inside us—layer by layer, through daily practice.
They gradually make us energetically unavailable to Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang.
Not through force. Through transformation.
What I Can and Cannot Offer
Let me be absolutely clear about something:
I cannot promise you healing.
What I can teach you is how to prepare the ground where healing might occur.
This is pioneer work—work that may take 200 years to become mainstream. I may never experience complete healing myself. But it seems that I'm creating a crack in consensus reality that future generations will walk through. Time will tell.
My approach won't work if you're on a superhero mission trying to heal yourself through willpower and alternative protocols alone. If your inflammation has spread beyond your rectum, chances of self-healing through diet and supplements alone diminish rapidly.
You need Western medicine first. Get your physical symptoms under control. Stop the bleeding. Stabilize. Then—once your body is internally calm enough—you can focus on the spiritual aspects of this journey.
When the body is in upheaval, you don't have the basis for anything subtle or sublime.
But once you have that foundation, I can show you:
How to see your condition through the lens of Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang
How fear and lack in your energy field create entry points
How to practice Body Prayers that shift you from conditioning-driven survival to alignment with love and spiritual freedom
How to become unavailable to this entity—not through medication alone, but through the transformation of your fundamental relationship to fear, lack, and your own spirit
How to distinguish between guidance through suffering and guidance through love
How to rebuild healthy intuition from scratch (because the traumatized intuition shaped by abuse, shame, and disconnection is what attracted this condition in the first place)
Who This Is For
This work is not for everyone.
It's not for those seeking quick fixes, miracle cures, or mechanical protocols.
It's not for those who want to avoid Western medicine or believe they can "diet their way out" of inflammatory bowel disease.
It's not for those uncomfortable with spiritual language or entity frameworks.
This is for:
People who've tried multiple Western and alternative approaches and still experience flares
Those who are aware that ongoing inflammation increases risk of abnormal cell growth
Spiritually mature seekers ready to see the bigger picture
Those well-informed about their condition in Western medical terms who sense there's something deeper happening
People ready to see their illness as a spiritual teacher rather than an enemy
Those prepared to do the inner work of examining beliefs, releasing conditioning, and transforming their relationship to fear and lack
Pioneers willing to lay groundwork for healing that may take years—or generations—to fully manifest
If you're one of the rare few who reads this and thinks, "This is exactly what I've been looking for," then let's talk.
If you think I'm insane, that's also perfect. You're not my person.
I'm looking for maybe a dozen people annually who are truly ready for this level of work.
Not hundreds. Not thousands. Just the few who are already being called.
What Comes Next
I've structured this work in three tiers:
Foundation (self-paced): Learn the framework, practice introductory Body Prayers, begin the intellectual inquiry work
Practice Intensive (90-day hybrid program): Deep immersion in Body Prayer practice with monthly live integration sessions
Personal Initiation (1:1 intensive): Six sessions over three months for those ready for the deepest work
The path exists. The practices exist. The framework exists.
What's required is your readiness.
Not your hope. Not your desperation. Not your willingness to try one more thing.
Your actual readiness to see Heng Tun Pi Kou Ta Chuang as a spiritual teacher, to transform your relationship to fear and lack, and to prepare the ground—over months or years—where healing might choose to occur.
If that resonates, reach out.
If it doesn't, I wish you well on whatever path calls to you.
(1) Paraphrased from: Gabor Maté - When The Body Says No. The Cost Of Hidden Stress (2003)